Saturday, January 4, 2014
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Heart Broken
Family is important, is it not?
As of right now, I'm heart broken (and to be honest infuriated); Brandon's (my love's) brother Stephen and I had an argument a couple weeks ago. And it has now escalated into something much bigger and now has the family in turmoil, caused tension between Brandon and I, and I know how these stories end. Let me explain;
When I was with my ex, his mother hated me. I was the only one to see it [well besides my family of course and my ex's (whom shall not be named) aunt Prea, god I loved her and miss her dearly,]. Ever since him and I moved in together (after his mom called me a slut at the graduation party) there was major tension; tension, between him n I, him and his mom, his mom and I, all bad. To say the least, it grew until one day i couldn't take it anymore and I stood up to her; I thought I was going to marry her son (we were discussing it and planning our future) and thought that she would finally see that it wasn't cool. Yeah well she didn't, and we struggled for the whole last 6 months (me being blind to all of it till after) and then it abruptly ended. In the end, I made a promise to myself to never let that happen again; I told myself that if they do not like me from the beg. they won't ever. And I learned a lot from it, learned what I did wrong and what not to do. And honestly and happy it didn't work out because it wasn't meant to be. So, circling back round....
When it comes to Stephen and I, we argue like brother and sister, and I put him in place a lot like an older sibling would. Now, I am not being vindictive, Stephen likes to play the victim and is extremely selfish. Bringing you up to date now, Stephen has two chiweenies that he doesn't like anybody babysitting, anybody feeding and god forbid if he hears one yelp, screech, cry or any noise that they make that sounds like they are dying. The rest of the dogs in the house are fairly bigger, and when mine and Brandon's come to play they are rough and rowdy. The argument was caused by him having an attitude and me smarting off; his girl dog ran right into the middle of where the big dogs were playing, and yelp because they ran into her. Well she saw them and ran right into the middle of them (I was watching the dogs play while I sat next to where it happened). Comes out pushing Akiba off the couch and yells at them to stop and settle down and huffs and blah blah. Naturally, I defend myself and am extremely defensive over my dogs; I snap at him telling him he doesn't know what hes talking about and they didn't do anything she ran into them. He continues to argue even though he wasn't even in the room when it happened! So later that night his dog yelps again, this time because she got scared while she was playing with on of mine. Brandon's little sister gasps and says omg are you ok...Well you can only guess what Stephen did; I replied calmly with shes fine nothing happened and I might have rolled my eyes. Stephen went off saying "I don't know what your problem is, you have had such an attitude with me all night" and such things as I need to pay attention to whose house I am in and how I need to recognize who I am talking to and that Brandon and I should take our dogs and leave. Brandon intervened at that point because of how rude he was being.
And here we are a couple weeks lately, I have not really gotten over it because Stephen had no repercussion of what he did, but Brandon moved on and was being the bigger person but his brother told him to stop talking to him. And explained to their mom that he is pissed "because Brandon chose" me "over him".
As of right now, I'm heart broken (and to be honest infuriated); Brandon's (my love's) brother Stephen and I had an argument a couple weeks ago. And it has now escalated into something much bigger and now has the family in turmoil, caused tension between Brandon and I, and I know how these stories end. Let me explain;
When I was with my ex, his mother hated me. I was the only one to see it [well besides my family of course and my ex's (whom shall not be named) aunt Prea, god I loved her and miss her dearly,]. Ever since him and I moved in together (after his mom called me a slut at the graduation party) there was major tension; tension, between him n I, him and his mom, his mom and I, all bad. To say the least, it grew until one day i couldn't take it anymore and I stood up to her; I thought I was going to marry her son (we were discussing it and planning our future) and thought that she would finally see that it wasn't cool. Yeah well she didn't, and we struggled for the whole last 6 months (me being blind to all of it till after) and then it abruptly ended. In the end, I made a promise to myself to never let that happen again; I told myself that if they do not like me from the beg. they won't ever. And I learned a lot from it, learned what I did wrong and what not to do. And honestly and happy it didn't work out because it wasn't meant to be. So, circling back round....
When it comes to Stephen and I, we argue like brother and sister, and I put him in place a lot like an older sibling would. Now, I am not being vindictive, Stephen likes to play the victim and is extremely selfish. Bringing you up to date now, Stephen has two chiweenies that he doesn't like anybody babysitting, anybody feeding and god forbid if he hears one yelp, screech, cry or any noise that they make that sounds like they are dying. The rest of the dogs in the house are fairly bigger, and when mine and Brandon's come to play they are rough and rowdy. The argument was caused by him having an attitude and me smarting off; his girl dog ran right into the middle of where the big dogs were playing, and yelp because they ran into her. Well she saw them and ran right into the middle of them (I was watching the dogs play while I sat next to where it happened). Comes out pushing Akiba off the couch and yells at them to stop and settle down and huffs and blah blah. Naturally, I defend myself and am extremely defensive over my dogs; I snap at him telling him he doesn't know what hes talking about and they didn't do anything she ran into them. He continues to argue even though he wasn't even in the room when it happened! So later that night his dog yelps again, this time because she got scared while she was playing with on of mine. Brandon's little sister gasps and says omg are you ok...Well you can only guess what Stephen did; I replied calmly with shes fine nothing happened and I might have rolled my eyes. Stephen went off saying "I don't know what your problem is, you have had such an attitude with me all night" and such things as I need to pay attention to whose house I am in and how I need to recognize who I am talking to and that Brandon and I should take our dogs and leave. Brandon intervened at that point because of how rude he was being.
And here we are a couple weeks lately, I have not really gotten over it because Stephen had no repercussion of what he did, but Brandon moved on and was being the bigger person but his brother told him to stop talking to him. And explained to their mom that he is pissed "because Brandon chose" me "over him".
I know how these stories end, and I am sincerely heart broke over the entirety of it, because I told my self never again...
Transforming the 30 Day Challenge
So by now, you probably think I am a flake. I would too; I cant seem to keep up with this every day a new writing challenge, plus the one I chose isn't too exciting. So, I am now transforming it into topics to talk about rather than doing the whole Day 1, Day 2, Day 3 thing. Hope you can appreciate that at least I am acknowledging my sucky consistency.
Friday, December 6, 2013
Thursday, December 5, 2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 8
As you can see, I skipped Day 7 (~How you came across tumblr and how your life has changed since). I can come back to that topic later, I feel like I've already journal-ed about tumblr; it may be called a blog, and yes I may have one, but nobody really "blogs" on that site. So, I am continuing on to Day 8.
~Are you a fitness guru or a coach potato? Talk about your exercise habits.
I would claim myself as both. I do not get up and go to the gym every morning before work at 5 am; however, I do not lay around all day doing nothing. I love adventures, sports, and exercising in other ways than being a "gym rat". I have been in sports my whole life, not hardcore, but enough to be healthy and athletic. Volleyball was and is my favorite sport to play. I do all kinds of stuff when the weather is nice (obviously because you can do more in the warmer weather thus proving why summer is better ha) and when the weather isn't so nice I snowboard. I definitely keep myself active all the time though; I have two boxer mixes who love to play so I take them out quite a bit. On the other hand, I love to have lazy days. Sometimes it's nice to just do absolutely nothing; therefore, I admit and take full responsibility of being a coach potato every now and then. I have my happy place, right in the middle.
~Are you a fitness guru or a coach potato? Talk about your exercise habits.
I would claim myself as both. I do not get up and go to the gym every morning before work at 5 am; however, I do not lay around all day doing nothing. I love adventures, sports, and exercising in other ways than being a "gym rat". I have been in sports my whole life, not hardcore, but enough to be healthy and athletic. Volleyball was and is my favorite sport to play. I do all kinds of stuff when the weather is nice (obviously because you can do more in the warmer weather thus proving why summer is better ha) and when the weather isn't so nice I snowboard. I definitely keep myself active all the time though; I have two boxer mixes who love to play so I take them out quite a bit. On the other hand, I love to have lazy days. Sometimes it's nice to just do absolutely nothing; therefore, I admit and take full responsibility of being a coach potato every now and then. I have my happy place, right in the middle.
Monday, December 2, 2013
30 Day Challenge: Day 5 & 6
With my busy holiday weekend, I already missed another day.. It was such a short topic so I figured I could combined the two days. ;} forgive me tehe
~Your 3 favorite colors. (Day 4)
Lime, Teal, and Hot Pink
~Your favorite season and why. (Day 5)
Summer by far is my favorite season. Spring is a close second.
I love Summer because of the warm weather, late nights, abundant sunshine, just to name a few. I think a lot of factors play into my love for Summer. For one, I'm anemic so to me the heat is amazing; I love just laying out in the sun. For two, I absolutely love going to the beach, any beach, and I am not to fond of going when it is windy and cold, which would make summer ideal. Thirdly, I prefer to be comfortable in flowing tank tops, shorts, and summer dresses rather than needing along sleeve and jacket and boots and not being able to move as freely! Above all else, I love the possibilities of Summer! You can go to the park without ending up with your nose bright red and your hands like icicles even when you bundle up; the park is a big thing when you have two dogs who love adventures. The possibilities don't stop at the park. For example; you have barbecues, pool parties, fairs, drive-in dates, bonfires at the beach, and so much more. I have had so many awesome memories during summer, it always ends up being too short and I'm never ready for it to end. #beachbum #summerlovin
Lime, Teal, and Hot Pink
~Your favorite season and why. (Day 5)
Summer by far is my favorite season. Spring is a close second.
I love Summer because of the warm weather, late nights, abundant sunshine, just to name a few. I think a lot of factors play into my love for Summer. For one, I'm anemic so to me the heat is amazing; I love just laying out in the sun. For two, I absolutely love going to the beach, any beach, and I am not to fond of going when it is windy and cold, which would make summer ideal. Thirdly, I prefer to be comfortable in flowing tank tops, shorts, and summer dresses rather than needing along sleeve and jacket and boots and not being able to move as freely! Above all else, I love the possibilities of Summer! You can go to the park without ending up with your nose bright red and your hands like icicles even when you bundle up; the park is a big thing when you have two dogs who love adventures. The possibilities don't stop at the park. For example; you have barbecues, pool parties, fairs, drive-in dates, bonfires at the beach, and so much more. I have had so many awesome memories during summer, it always ends up being too short and I'm never ready for it to end. #beachbum #summerlovin
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