Saturday, December 7, 2013

Heart Broken

Family is important, is it not?

     As of right now, I'm heart broken (and to be honest infuriated); Brandon's (my love's) brother Stephen and I had an argument a couple weeks ago. And it has now escalated into something much bigger and now has the family in turmoil, caused tension between Brandon and I, and I know how these stories end. Let me explain;

            When I was with my ex, his mother hated me. I was the only one to see it [well             besides my family of course and my ex's (whom shall not be named) aunt Prea, god I   loved her and miss her dearly,]. Ever since him and I moved in together (after his mom called me a slut at the graduation party) there was major tension; tension, between him n I, him and his mom, his mom and I, all bad. To say the least, it grew until one day i couldn't take it anymore and I stood up to her; I thought I was going to marry her son (we were discussing it and planning our future) and thought that she would finally see that it wasn't cool. Yeah well she didn't, and we struggled for the whole last 6 months (me being blind to all of it till after) and then it abruptly ended. In the end, I made a promise to myself to never let that happen again; I told myself that if they do not like me from the beg. they won't ever. And I learned a lot from it, learned what I did wrong and what not to do. And honestly and happy it didn't       work out because it wasn't meant to be. So, circling back round....
     When it comes to Stephen and I, we argue like brother and sister, and I put him in place a lot like an older sibling would. Now, I am not being vindictive, Stephen likes to play the victim and is extremely selfish. Bringing you up to date now, Stephen has two chiweenies that he doesn't like anybody babysitting, anybody feeding and god forbid if he hears one yelp, screech, cry or any noise that they make that sounds like they are dying. The rest of the dogs in the house are fairly bigger, and when mine and Brandon's come to play they are rough and rowdy. The argument was caused by him having an attitude and me smarting off; his girl dog ran right into the middle of where the big dogs were playing, and yelp because they ran into her. Well she saw them and ran right into the middle of them (I was watching the dogs play while I sat next to where it happened). Comes out pushing Akiba off the couch and yells at them to stop and settle down and huffs and blah blah. Naturally, I defend myself and am extremely defensive over my dogs; I snap at him telling him he doesn't know what hes talking about and they didn't do anything she ran into them. He continues to argue even though he wasn't even in the room when it happened! So later that night his dog yelps again, this time because she got scared while she was playing with on of mine. Brandon's little sister gasps and says omg are you ok...Well you can only guess what Stephen did; I replied calmly with shes fine nothing happened and I might have rolled my eyes. Stephen went off saying "I don't know what your problem is, you have had such an attitude with me all night" and such things as I need to pay attention to whose house I am in and how I need to recognize who I am talking to and that Brandon and I should take our dogs and leave. Brandon intervened at that point because of how rude he was being. 
     And here we are a couple weeks lately, I have not really gotten over it because Stephen had no repercussion of what he did, but Brandon moved on and was being the bigger person but his brother told him to stop talking to him. And explained to their mom that he is pissed "because Brandon chose" me "over him". 

I know how these stories end, and I am sincerely heart broke over the entirety of it, because I told my self never again...


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